Jumbled Thoughts

Hey guys.

I am suddenly feeling lost. I don't understand why I do, but I just am. My head is filled with thoughts of not belonging. I think I blame this new story idea for these thoughts. It's almost like I don't know where I fit in. At home, at school, at work...I just can't find a place. This isn't just a new thought either. I have been having this reoccurring feeling for years.

My writing, my stories, it is all a big diary entry. My feelings thrown into a different character's life and world. Cresent Moon, Redeemption, Like You, Twin Eyes, Dark Angel, and now even Ultimate Mirror. My heart is uneasy and I create characters who are filled with those same feelings. Laurel, Lindsay, Alyssa, Selene, and Allen. Hell even my fanfics I have written: 23 Days, Nothing Personal, The Other Side of Me...those characters are expressions of what I feel. I just can't seem to shake the feeling.

And now this is turning into a diary entry. Sorry.

On a brighter note....Ultimate Mirror has some very interesting scenes appearing. Let's just say that my mind is a very scary place.

Haha, strange scenes aside. Has anyone read Allegiant yet? Yeah, well neither have I. My friend just borrowed me her copy, so I am going to read it tonight. Let's hope that even with this "controversial ending", the book ends the series wisely. (I am scared to read it though).

I suppose I should get some homework done while I wait for class to start, but I would prefer to write on here than to study about Hamsters and Gerbils.

OH! Wanna see two pictures that I find to be very inspiring for writing Twin Eyes and Ultimate Mirror?

This is a picture that helped me write Twin Eyes, especially the character of Anderson who is a dual-swordsman.

This picture helped me to create two characters from Ultimate Mirror. I won't say which two because I haven't formally written a full chapter yet. 

It is always exciting to find inspiration in the little things. 

Hope you guys had a good safe Halloween. 

Also anime fans. Don't forget to check out my anime page! Bleach fans keep an eye out because I will be posting a theories page for what I think will happen in the last volume or two of the series. 

Have a great one you guys. 

xoxo, 

Kat =^.^=

Letting Out the Steam!

It's that time of year again. The craziness of the fall and winter is beginning once more. While the psychos roam the streets (anywhere really), we need to find a way to release the frustrations of having to deal with such stressful environments. Some people exercise, others shop (though why you would want to shop now is beyond me), some change their looks. As for me, I write. My angriest, and even most depressing, scenes have been written during times of stress and upset. It is when I feel most inspired. It is almost like the characters chatter away in my brain making the feeling of urgency even worse. So I put those frustrations on paper.

My latest scribble fest is a new story idea. It is currently untitled because I haven't hit a point where that 'Ah ha!' has hit me. I don't really know exactly where this story will take me, but it seems like fun for now. (Smile, this is a good thing!)

Now this doesn't mean that Twin Eyes is on the back burner, it is also a current running in my head. (Yeah, it's painful with so many chatty-Cathy's in my head). The reason I started this new story is to get my mind off of Twin Eyes for a bit until I can become inspired to write the remaining chapters that evade me. (I see those little buggers hiding around the corner playing Peek-a-Boo). Unfortunately this means that on top of the stress of being a college student, I also have my brain wrapped around these stories. (School always comes first!) I sometimes find it hard to sleep at night, but such is the life of a writer. Insomnia must be a growing thing amongst writers.

Luckily I have three days off between work and school. Otherwise I would lose my mind...even more so than I already have.

PLUS!!! I am a fangirl of many things. My current obsession is anime, so I follow many currently running stories that help to inspire me. Sadly, this means that I have some form of anxiety (mostly from one story) when it comes to waiting. The two stories I am really into right now are Bleach by Tite Kubo and Naruto by Masashi Kishimoto. Yeah yeah. I know what you're thinking. (Trust me I have heard it all). What is a twenty-one year old doing watching and reading "cartoons"? But to be honest, the different worlds that these Japanese mangaka create is a wonderful escape from the hardships of the real world. I don't really care if I am judged for it, it is something that makes me happy, so why should I fit in with what people want to see me as? Anyway (rambling over), those stories give the right amount of suspense (because I have to wait a week between chapters) that helps me to create a tense environment necessary for my story. (That could just be I want some where to vent).

Whoa...talk about getting off topic. I guess I just needed to talk about the new things in my writing and reading life.

Let me know (to those few readers I have) what else you would like to see on here. I am willing to talk about anything writing and reading related.

Later!
Kat =^.^=